Musings of a Stay at Home Mom ...

The number flashing on my mobile was that of my closest, single, super busy friend.. amidst our general natter, a question-” Tu karti kya hai din bhar?? What do you do the entire day??”  set me thinking- this had reference to my routine while on a sabbatical, post 16 years of chaotic corporate life.. This was not the first time somebody had asked me this maybe not so brusquely(This friend is infamous for her candid viewpoints!!) and yes by the conventional measures I am no longer a part of the dynamic corporate world, I am not busy  upgrading my academics, I am not even a part of any kitty party, not aggressively pursuing any exotic hobby either.. so what am I busy doing ..after pondering on this for a few days..I realised  I was busy living life without the usual stresses of the modern world which is a little knotty to comprehend in  the conventional sense of a happy life –( No  high powered designation with a blue chip,  husband not giving interviews/travelling abroad every second day,  not a page 3 or even local society party regular,  no thousands following on twitter) but this doesn’t bother me most of the days. It would be a bit hypocritical to say it doesn’t bother me at all.. that small little head of ambition does surface every once in a while and that’s when one starts wondering if it was worth it – the Sabbatical.

When I think of the tiny joys I have experienced in the last 2 years  then maybe it is.., to mention a few, my early morning rendezvous with nature : 

The experience of soaking in the awesome streaming rays of an early morning sun with a view of a lush green lawn surrounded by rows of colourful Petunia’s, Dalia’s, Marigold and many more.. moist with morning dew, birds chirping faraway, Shiv Kumar Sharma’s “morning in the hills” playing in the back ground while sipping my favorite - hot cuppa adrak chai  - my morning heaven.. a dream, a rarity but still a dream I live on a lucky day . That early morning drive around the city with no traffic, empty road till the next traffic light – how can one just not smile...early winter sun.. clear sky.. quiet roads.. no crazy honking.. a lonesome cyclist at a distance, morning breeze gushing thru the car,  nostalgic songs playing at the background,, simple pleasures of life..

The view : A peaceful and  spotless Kitchen, rays of early morning sun peeping in thru the ancient colored glass window, an organized tea tray with lovely colourful mugs. Gayatri mantra playing in the background. A time of the day filled with hope and energy or those hazy cool mornings with the sweet sound of rain drops, the intoxicating whiff of wet soil while watching my small and large bundle of joy sleeping peacefully and sipping that awesomely flavoured tea..blisss

I have lost count of the days that go by running after my little bundle of energy, planning her meals, watching her throw a tantrum/ uttering a new word she has learnt, listening to her animated inane babble, joining her in her fun filled mêlée while bathing.. the hearty laughter, the copious tears, the warm cuddles. Waking up after a sinful afternoon siesta with my joyful bundle- if this is not heaven what it is??

The ability to discover the biggest joys in the smallest of things -The freedom to put your phone on silent mode, the freedom to not answer a call, the freedom to say no, the freedom to your own time, Sharing that exotic creamily coffee & many sinful goodies with hubby  in a quaint coffee shop on weekday with both fussing over the lil one in between sips and bites..  if this is not happiness what is? ?

That sumptuous lunch with that super successful, super busy friend, exchanging notes of life, bitching about people yet empathizing with each other while digging into those heavenly desserts; if this not celebrating friendship what is ??

The opportunity and the privilege to interact with people from exotic backgrounds, rich with experiences in life, confident people free from tags of a heavy duty designation/wealth. Evolved, uncomplicated yet so unassuming. If that’s not  a breath of fresh air for one’s soul what is ??

This is what I do with my life, my friend..I live life J Would the fast paced, crazy corporate life allowed one to experience these divine joys ?? Maybe not.. so why ponder just enjoy while it lasts J J